When I was in hospital for alcohol withdrawal, I was put on a drug called Campral. This is supposed to stop all craving for alcohol and assist greatly in creating permanent abstinance, if taken for 2 years.
For the first few months I think it helped greatly. Over Christmas I thought more about drinking than at any other time since I quit. Wine and beer were everywhere. I got through that, without much suffering at all, and I have had no desire to drink whatsoever.
So I gave up the Campral. Part of the reason was that I hated having to be on a medication regime that included nineteen tablets a day (Campral alone was 6 a day). The other was that I needed to know if I could do this on my own.
And you know what? I can. A whole month and not one desire to drink.
I haven't gone to AA because I reject totally the notion of giving myself over to a higher power. I am the higher power. I am responsible for what I do or what I do not do. If I am going to beat this, then I must do it. I must do it. Not a higher power. Not medications to change my brain even more.
So I'm doing it.
How about that?