June 7th it was. Now its January 9th. That makes it 6 months.
6 months sober. I could have sworn it was longer.
Over the holidays I’ve discovered the joy of “alcohol removed” wines. They taste like shit compared to real wine. What do you expect really when they remove all the fun from the bottle? I balk at spending twice what I paid per bottle at Dan Murphy’s but nevertheless, for a special occasion such as Festivus one must be seen to be partaking in the jolliness of it all.
As things do, it made me think: at what point is it ok for me to have a glass of champers to celebrate something special? When can I enjoy a couple of refreshingly cold ciders on a hot summer’s day? Is 6 months too soon? Is ever too soon? Am I the alcoholic who can never ever touch another drop or its straight back to 2 bottles a night again? Or am I the alcoholic who can drink occasionally, but responsibly?
How do you tell which you are?
Coz I really really want that cold cider.
Please stay away. Do that one thing for yourself.
ReplyDeleteMy mother-in-law, who I've mentioned, has started drinking again on occasion...and it's not a good thing. Maybe she can handle it during good times, but I've found that when she gets upset she reaches for the wine. It's the path of least resistance. All that willpower she's amassed has gone to waste as she's learned to say yes again when she shouldn't, and in that she's given up some of that hard-won control. Add to that her daughter who likes to push her buttons, and it's an increasingly ugly situation.
Now, I'm not in your shoes, but as someone who is watching her decline I want to say this: It's a battle you fight every day, but I beg you to keep fighting. Don't even waste your energy on the alcohol-free stuff; it just rubs in how awful the 'good' stuff really can be.
eve.
xo
Sorry, can't help with this one. My intuition tells me that you need to stay away from it for ever. Especially if a couple of cold ciders on a hot night, turn into a couple of bottles every night within a week.
ReplyDeleteHang in there...
My contrary brain says "wouldnt it suck to stay away forever when you could have enjoyed the rare cold one all along?" My drug & alcohol counsellor said there were two camps and he didnt know which I would fit into. I guess you dont know until you try. Or try and fail.
ReplyDeleteDefinately my sensible brain is saying that if having a cold cider is such a big deal right now then I shouldnt give it a try.
Go sensible brain!