tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13503726.post1762300237270891914..comments2023-10-24T22:49:10.673+10:30Comments on Pandamoanium: "If I Am Not For Me, Then Who Is For Me?"Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02380190236086336023noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13503726.post-60056324994536318912011-07-24T02:42:54.856+09:302011-07-24T02:42:54.856+09:30sometimes the quiet is also a hindrance, but i agr...sometimes the quiet is also a hindrance, but i agree that a few hours of quiet may be useful indeed my dear.<br>hope you get it soon.<br>did you try some lavender for your sleep? xxjethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16526332436659748623noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13503726.post-55059219952341051062011-07-24T02:42:54.564+09:302011-07-24T02:42:54.564+09:30Sharon, I'm so sorry to hear what you're g...Sharon, I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. I promise you it WILL get better. Hang in there.<br><br>- Francie (Long time reader / lurker, first or second time commenter).Franciehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05034004540141447860noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13503726.post-71381745968065581712011-06-27T14:26:03.561+09:302011-06-27T14:26:03.561+09:30you know that i know what it is like to feel like ...you know that i know what it is like to feel like nothing makes sense, that you cannot cope with what has been, what is and what might be. HOWEVER, believe me when I say you always have me ear to bash, my arms for a hug and my torch to share if the candles aren't cutting it. The hard may get harder, then easier, then harder, then easier again etc etc. Most important thing is that you allow your friends to help you and hold your hand through this difficult time and hang on to the hope that change is a good thing - not necessarily an easy thing.<br />Take Care sweet friend xoCindynoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13503726.post-22806419658436380872011-06-25T11:50:21.873+09:302011-06-25T11:50:21.873+09:30"Im ein ani li, mi li?" Not so much a pr..."Im ein ani li, mi li?" Not so much a proverb as a saying of Rabbi Hillel's. The whole thing reads: "If I am not for myself, then who will be for me? And if I am only for myself, then what am I? And if not now, when?" And absolutely right, you are for you, and for them, and the time is now. So you do whatever you need to do to remain for you, and for them. Everyhting else is landscape, as we say. <br />I think those panic attacks are par for the course. Unfortunate, but would it help to accept that you will have some? No experience with those so I really have no idea... (MB needs a finely tuned kick to the gonads though. One thing at a time though, one day you'll be free of that too). If you need to be in hospital then be in hospital, do it. Raise your hand and say "Help me! I can't do this alone anymore" to whom it matters, to those in a position to help you, exactly so. You'd probably still feel like you're crawling out of your skin but you'd be micromanaged. Even if it's just for a little bit, it might be the little bit that grounds you a bit more and when you feel like there's not much keeping you bound every milimetre counts, no? Leaving the children with MB might not be ideal but let's face it, neither is having an alcoholic mother so that is your priority, they are your priority. Do what you feel you have to do to be what you need to be.Lionesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11066691544599972381noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13503726.post-53529873248841565522011-06-25T05:27:57.085+09:302011-06-25T05:27:57.085+09:30Sharon, I'm so sorry to hear what you're g...Sharon, I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. I promise you it WILL get better. Hang in there.<br /><br />- Francie (Long time reader / lurker, first or second time commenter).Franciehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05034004540141447860noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13503726.post-7767865376977523272011-06-25T04:32:04.616+09:302011-06-25T04:32:04.616+09:30I wish you could just drop your kids off at my hou...I wish you could just drop your kids off at my house while you go into hospital so they don't have to be around MB and his negativity.<br /><br />You don't deserve this. You need to get away for a bit and get some healthy distance so you can focus, literally and figuratively. Do whatever it takes.<br /><br />We are all for you. We are in your kitchen, grabbing and embracing your hand when you reach for a bottle. We are in the car, turning up the radio so you can't hear him. We are here always, asking how you are, and listening.<br /><br />We are all for you.lorem ipsumhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04034551632421077938noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13503726.post-2688894500106790592011-06-25T03:22:38.000+09:302011-06-25T03:22:38.000+09:30sometimes the quiet is also a hindrance, but i agr...sometimes the quiet is also a hindrance, but i agree that a few hours of quiet may be useful indeed my dear.<br />hope you get it soon.<br />did you try some lavender for your sleep? xxjet xhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16526332436659748623noreply@blogger.com